So...
I haven't drank for two days in quite a long time.
But the good news is neither night (ie - last night and tonight) was out of control.
I didn't black out last night or have a hangover.
Same with tonight. I mean, I'm still drunk fo sho, but not terribly.
Just comfortably.
Lately I've begun to have doubts about my major again. I don't know if graphic design is right for me. I just don't seem to fit in with my peers. They're all so... political? Opinionated? Hipsters? I don't know. I'm none of those things. I'm an apathetic frat rat.
I hate politics. Hate hate hate. I want everyone to get along. I don't identify with a political party. I'm a realist. I don't like to run around preaching my ideals and it bothers me when others do (when they're forceful about it. if its a discussion I don't mind so much) but that's just how everything is. I mean, everything I do is expected to have meaning. To have a reason. I do things because I think that they're aesthetically pleasing. I like nice looking things and that's that. I put colors together because I like them, not because of how they make you react.
Does that make me unfit to be a serious designer? I mean, I kind of just want to do magazine layouts or hallmark cards. Something that doesn't require everything I do to be so in depth. I don't know. I keep thinking about switching to an advertising major. I could still finish in five years if I did. At the same time, I'm so unsure. I have so many doubts about both. What if I changed and was just miserable in advertising? I don't have the money to be in school for more than five years. My dad said he'd pay for five years and after that I was on my own and I absolutely understand that. I don't think I'd want to be dicking around in school for that long anyway.
Whatever.
I've had quite a bit to drink.
I've had toooo many cigarettes tonight (I'm stressed).
But I think I'll stick with it.
I need to experience it with a different professor.
We'll see. Positivity. Or at least the promise of turning 21 soon and a trip to Mexico with my ladies if we can plan it. And maybe a trip to Vegas with the parents? Perhaps?
Whatevs.
Love y'all.
Goodnight.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
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In my humble opinion, you should stick with graphic design. Advertising doesn't seem right for you. And who cares about all those pretentious hipsters? It's exhausting to always have deep meanings behind what you say and do. You're really talented. Do what you enjoy. It's kind of like how today, I really want Olive Garden. But I feel guilty because it's a chain restaurant, and there isn't even one in the city. But who cares? Sometimes you just want Olive Garden.
Also, I agree with you about the politics. I was out with a family friend in Florida and found out she is a Tea Party member who loves Sarah Palin. When she found out about my love for Obama, she got really angry with me. I hate that. I don't want to get in some big argument when it's obvious neither of us will change our minds.
In conclusion, I can't wait till you turn 21.
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